sickliness

despite my shitty weekend so far and my total lack of sleep, i did some research this morning about my health and not surprisingly found that many of my ailments are interconnected. In summation, i am a sickly person and doomed to be that way unless some drastic changes occur. first of all, asthma isn't doing me any favors. i always tried to kind of downplay it - i hate using my inhalor in front of people, i hate the taste of it and basically i just hate everything about asthma. it has essentially ruined my life. i wished that my stepdad's side of the family has never forced me to take that inhalor when i had my first asthma attack. secondly, the side effects of using inhalors is slowly killing me and i am positive it will play a major role in my death. it makes me want to scream whenever i see ads on tv promoting all these new inhalors like it's a miracle cure. it's a fucking lie!! everytime i have ever been sick, i have been able to trace it to the use of inhaled steriods. and every year i get sicker and sicker. the use of inhlaors cause everything from the common cold:

People more likely to get colds include:
Children and those over 65
Children who have parents who smoke
Children who attend day care
Smokers and those exposed to second hand smoke
Those exposed to industrial smoke, toxic fumes, or other air pollutants
People with immune system disorders, like HIV, AIDS, or cancer, or compromised immune function, like those taking steroids for a long time
People under a fair amount of stress

to scarier stuff like:

Also, when given in very large doses (many puffs from a high-concentration steroid inhaler), the amount of steroid medicine that spills over into the bloodstream can become significant. Although the effect is small, like a very small dose of prednisone, over the years this small effect can potentially add up to serious harmful effects. High doses of inhaled steroids taken for a long time can probably predispose to cataracts, glaucoma, and thinning of the skin and bones.

Do ya think it might have had something to do with breaking my ankle? I HATE DOCTORS those assholes tell me, SCOLD ME to take my inhalors and never once mentioned any of the potential side effects. How the hell else do you explain me getting the following illness/injuries within a span of 7 months??
ankle break (bad enough to have metal implants!)
Skin infections lasting several months
vision loss, blurriness
having to go to a chiropractor because my whole bone structure hurts
blood pressure scares, diabetes scares, serious diarhhea
the FLU AND the COLD within a week of each other!

Never trust doctors, they don't know shit - just what pharmaceutical companies tell them. For the love of your child, NEVER ever put them on any kind of steriod for long term use. My parents didn't know what we know today so you would be utterly retarded to knowingly put your child on these kinds of medicines unless it was a case of life or death. I know that my asthma could have been controlled and probably gone by now, but the continued use of inhalors made my body addicted to it.

Inhaled corticosteroids are increasingly being used for the first line management of asthma. Adverse effects such as adrenal suppression and osteoporosis are well documented. Less well recognised adverse effects include glaucoma, skin fragility, acne vulgaris and hirsutism. Be aware of the cumulative effect if co-prescribing various dose forms of corticosteroids such as inhaled, intranasal, oral and topical preparations. The lowest dose necessary to achieve optimal disease control should always be prescribed. Consider monitoring intraocular pressure if prescribing >1500µg/day inhaled beclomethasone (or equivalent).

http://www.medsafe.govt.nz/Profs/PUarticles/2.htm

WHAT THE FUCK?!?! I mean seriously, you hear those ads on tv for people with penile erection disorder and the side effects are like 10 times worse than the affliction in the first place, WTF? why would anybody do that??? I am so mad, I don't know whether to cry or scream. I can't even swear off using my inhalors anymore because if I do end up having an attack my life depends on it. So i'm screwed either way. I do know that the next time any doctor ever tells me i need to be taking my inhalor twice a day no matter what, i am going to raise hell all the way out of the building so that everyone can hear.

ok i have to go see my uncle for some acupuncture or something so i'll continue my rant later...

well, it's almost bedtime and after some acupuncture i feel a little better...still have a cold though. tomorrow morning i have to take poor bibi to the doctor for surgery..but i can't even talk about that i get so upset. i have two more acupuncture sessions then my uncle is going to make some chinese medicine concoction for me. acupuncture wasn't so bad, i was kind of nervous about it but it's not nearly as bad as getting a shot. i love jack johnson, banana pancakes and constellations make me feel so much better...anyways the acupuncture barely felt like a little prick. less than a mosquito bite, in most cases. there were a couple spots where it stung a bit but it wasn't painful at all. your whole body just goes still, like your limbs are heavier. it was kind of relaxing, if i wasn't so obsessed thinking about the needles sticking out of me everywhere. so, my uncle agrees that the asthma is the underlying cause for most of my ailments, and inhaled steriods are the enemy. i'm going to quit taking my inhalor unless i am having a full-blown attack where it's life or death. that's gonna be hard because it sucks to not be able to breathe. but i am going to take natural remedies and hopefully it will help me breathe better. pollution is my number one concern because i work in the city and it is very polluted here in atlanta. once i get some control of my breathing and detox my system a bit i can try to exercise to lose some weight. all of this is going to require a lot of determination and i hate that. i am actually really lazy. i don't want to have to work 10 times harder just to be healthy. but i guess i have no choice.