perms & careers

some of the stuff that's been going on lately has my wheels turning. i seriously don't have time to work at some stupid firm. i have plenty going on without a 9-5! I still need to get me a job, though. I think my next job will only be long enough to finish my idp and get licensed, though. then i'm quitting the corporate rat race forever. i have had so many ideas and plans in my head just screaming to get out, i think i'll go crazy if i don't do something about it. i think some of my long-time friends might remember how many plans and ideas i have. i am always so inspired - you can tell when i am depressed if i don't have plans and inspirations to do stuff. a lot of my ideas stem off of my mom's ideas. she has a non-profit organization called the forsythia house which helps battered women establish self-sufficiency. she is also building a hotel in a very run-down part of downtown atlanta that we met with a contractor about today. there's a million things going through our heads it's crazy. when my mom and i spend a day together we brainstorm the entire time. we also butt heads on some things because my mom is a little more ruthless than i am. she utlimately sees dollar signs in everything she does. but i seem to have inherited that entreprenuership spirit from her anyways.
during lunch today, though - i almost got mad with her because after all this time she still has this need to control my life. it's like i HAVE to get licensed. yes, i agree. i am going to. but not because she says i HAVE to. that pisses me off. she makes it seem like a non-option - just like everything else she wants me to do. which only adds pressure to me. i try to tell her about how working for a corporate firm SUCKS ASS because they treat you like toilet paper, but that doesn't phase her. she is all about SUCCESS - and i am too. but on my own terms. i can play the game, but i wont become it. unlike her - i have a personal code of ethics. well, actually she has her own code of ethics but it's about honesty mostly. mine is about integrity. honesty is just a piece of it. if i don't agree with a policy why should i have to mold my life around it? did you know in most other civilized nations women are given 6 months of PAID maternity leave? America has the worst policy. why should women have to chose between family and career? i can't even get into this arguement now cause it angers me so much but suffice to say that one day i might just have my own architecture firm with nothing but FEMALE PRINCIPALS that can boast the BEST policies for their employees. Why have a dozen employees breeze through the office every year when you can have a dozen really good and committed employees that stick around? this is all i have to say to corporate workers - why the fuck should you work in those conditions to make someone else rich?? always have a goal in mind - SEE your future and live with intentions. don't become a mindless coffee guzzling brown-nosing nobody. you have to TAKE your success. my mom's favorite saying is - even if you sell hot dogs on the street, be your own boss.

oh and i finally got that perm. i went with a straight perm - sat in a chair for four hours while they soaked me in chemicals. i now have straight hair! no more crazy afro-woman hair. i like it. i'll probably get tired of it, but it will do for now.