skinny bitch

if you have already heard me rave about this book i just read called skinny bitch then you may want to just stop reading now - there's more comin'. i learned some new things, but for the most part i have known, or at least suspected, many of the things talked about in this book. really it was just a confirmation for me - with research to back it up. and for that i am very grateful because i have read hundreds of articles, pamphlets, brochures, and books about diet - what you should and shouldn't eat, how and when and how much - and it's mostly just bullshit. or most of the time they write like they are trying to explain astrophysics to a retard. either way you end up reading in circles and end up back to square one. the beauty of skinny bitch is that it's short and to the point - use your common sense. trust yourself and trust nature. DO NOT TRUST MAN or anything manmade. nothing is sugar-coated and i like that. if there's anything you should know about me by now is that i like to make informed decisions - and i like to my own decisions whether they are good or bad.

in a nutshell the book tells you to become vegan. and it sounds extreme (and it kinda is..) BUT they explain why very well. and the way that they explain it makes you WANT to be a vegan. Vegan is good, but it's not for everybody and it is VERY difficult. I honestly do not see myself being sucessfully vegan. not for the long haul, anyways. the only things that i couldn't give up are cheese and eggs. i cannot live without my cheese and eggs. but i have decided that i eat way too much cheese and eggs so i am cutting back drastically. seriously after knowing the process and where cheese comes from and how they get it is disturbing to say the least. your are basically eating moldy breastmilk from another beast.

so, read the book if you want to know the truth. it won't be easy. DON'T read the book if you enjoy eating the way you do. but don't expect your health to improve, either.

vegetarianism is much easier and more practical. it's amazing how much more variety and flexibility eating cheese and eggs gives you as a vegetarian. CHICKEN is terrible, people. just yesterday my mom and i drove past a big semi carrying chickens stuffed in crates - i saw dead chicken heads poking out of the sides. it's fucking horrendous. this is why i want to have my own farm because i wouldn't mind eating chicken and especially eggs if i knew exactly where it came from, how it lived and how it died (in the case of chicken, obviously). I can't ever see myself butchering a cow or pig, though. it's easy to eat those things when you don't think about the process but once you KNOW it takes some re-prioritizing to ever eat meat again. I don't know how i got sucked back into eating meat again - i have a strong suspicion that it was korean bbq. no beef can equal the taste and savory smell of korean bbq. i must stay away from it because that is my weakness. before i went back to eating meat, the sight and especially smell of ground beef was repulsive. probably because i could smell feces and rotting flesh in the meat. chicken also grossed me out cause it was slimy and you had to see body parts. pork was just gross for some reason. pigs are cute and eating them seemed somewhat evil. it is.

fish, however. fish i can eat. i enjoy fishing and i think it is pretty natural to eat fish. there's problems there too, though. fish are very sensitive to their environment. you can tell much faster that water is contaminated by looking at it's inhabitants. fish unfortunately have to live in our polluted waters. think about the type of shit that goes down your drain. what about the drain at say, a gas station? or a mcdonald's? where does that shit end up ultimately? do you want any part of that entering your body? i am skeptical of eating salmon now - it is a big industry that has it's flaws just like any other meat industry. i would rather eat fish that came from sources i trust. better yet, fish from my mom's lake. but she only has brim, catfish, and bass. i like tuna, salmon, cod, and tilapia. I also like crab, shrimp and lobster. i shall continue to eat seafood but be discriminating.

what i can remember from being vegetarian way back when....
i could see, hear, and mostly taste and smell better.
i had more energy.
i could wake up earlier.
i did not have food cravings.
i did not have sweet cravings.
i could think clearer.
i lost weight.
i had better skin, hair and nails.
i liked the feeling of empty in my stomach. it did not freak me out to the point where i felt like i had to stuff myself or die of starvation.

now i have to keep in mind that at the same time i was vegetarian i was extremely poor and smoked pot. i was too poor to feed my munchies from smoking pot so i had to get used to being hungry a lot. but i did it. i had to. maybe i resented that fact and when i had more money i went overboard with making sure i had an adequately stocked fridge. i began to overeat and that led to eating meat. i don't know what i was thinking but i do think i had some sort of mental paranoia or delusions that made me think i had to gorge myself whenever i got the chance.

fortunately, it's only been a few years since all that started happening. unfortunately, it doesn't take long to completely fuck up your health. i would say it's been about 6 years that i have been living in this unhealthy state. it's time to reverse some damage.